today and why do i even want him?

[Bolt]

grr, I agree with Denver. That isn't trite at all. Unfortunately, he doesn't see it from your side at all. I've been there TONS of times. What's the big deal? I came to the hospital, didn't I? That is selfish for sure.

But also, DO remember all of the other times that were good. I'm having that issue with my W right now. She is ONLY remembering the bad times (rewriting history??).

Stay focused on the good. That will keep you positive in the very least. At the most, it will make him positive as well.

I wish I could say something more insightful and I promise to in the future.