I still want to make this work

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I don't know if I blew it or not, but when she came by today I made mention of our marriage for the first time in a long time. I simply said that I still prefer to work on our marriage, but I said that I know that she does not want that right now and I would not ask her to do anything she didn't want or anything that would stand in the way of her happiness.

Her reaction was what I expected, pretty much just put her head down and said "I know."

The only reason I said anything was a few weeks ago I made mention that getting back together would be "impossible." I probably didn't need to say it. She probably new that I still want to work on things, but I wanted to be sure.

It was still friendly when she left, so hopefully I didn't set myself back too far.

It was a tough day after that, I took the afternoon off and just laid on the couch. First time I have had a day like that since this all first started. Mentally, I felt like it was a huge step back. But, this evening I am feeling better. Truth be told, my mental health is much better with less contact rather than more.

Tomorrow is another day, we'll see what it brings....