i'll start with today h, at his house (which is really our new house- i am with my parents) had fixed up a music studio for our little boy he wanted me to bring s over so we could see his reaction then called me 2x while he was out telling me when to come called a third time to tell me i could park in the driveway because he left room for me when i got there he gave me a hug when we saw sons reaction to room he gave me another, sort of a more intimate one then led me to basement to see his work, but if i had any thoughts that he was having 2nd thoughts he quickly quelled those with, "well let me know if you are going to be living here or is it going to be my house" i get confused sometimes and don't know how to react can these even be considered baby steps or my h just trying to be a good guy help also i am trying to detach by remembering some of his bad behaviour he is probably the most self absorbed person i have ever met remember he is the lead singer in an established rock band that kinda goes with the territory i guess when he is on the road, it's all about him but i can give 3 quick examples and i'm just venting here
when my dad had a major stroke, he did not even consider flying home with me..and my brother in law had to tell him it would be a nice thing if he waited in the airport with me til my flight left
when i was pregnant, the doctor thought there was something wrong with my son and wanted me to come in once a week for a sonogram the first morning i had to go, h came in from tour the night before and because my appointment was so early did not even offer to come with me (he knew i was afraid)
last year i had to have a small "girl procedure done" he drove me there and left, when the nurse called him to say i was done and to pick me up (i was put out and could barely walk) he pulled up in front and honked the horn..the rn went out and was very curt with him and he couldn't understand why
these might seem like small things, i don't know...i never really shared them but there are many more instances where i was never considered most often not
i will probably read this back and it might seem trite
maybe not
i hope all of my bits who have had a bad day or 2 are back on track
