So today I went for my appointment with the L. He told me to let H file if that is what he wants. He said that he doesnt think my H wants a D but needs mental health care. I had to laugh at that!

He said that as long as my H keeps his deposit going to the bank and that we are okay, I can just hang back for a while until I am really ready to move forward. He said that this family is still H's responsiblity and if that stops for any reason to get back there immediately.

If you all remember my H never cut us off financially. He kept his retirement pay going to my account so I had enough to pay all the bills. He just kept his paycheck. This time I was a little smarter and put a little money aside, just in case.

So I guess I will wait for a little time and see what happens. I am comfortable and okay with that for now.

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