please help on what i need to do.

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I so feel for you, man. Now can you help me understand this a little better: is the guilt you're describing stemming from your separation from your daughter, or something more self-esteem related?

It is both. One of the reasons my W gave me is that she thought i was always depressed and could not make myself happy. She said she was getting tired of being my nurse. Yup, i do have this issue where i start feeling sorry for myself and spiral down into sadness when things dont go good between us. I found it a herculean task to pick up strength and steer or R back on track. But when i did a couple of times, I felt da*n good. Yea, so right now i just gotta try to develop my mojo. Problem is that right now i am unable to distinguish between sadness due to the loss of marriage and divorce, and sadness due to my own self esteem issues. hope that makes sense.