I understand the shows her that I didn't care enough to stay up for her, but when it's good for me I'll do it. First time in months shes "wanted" me in anyway, I'm sorry I wasn't prepared for it. Don't know if she was intentionally challenging me because she knew I was tired? Setting me up to fail?! Whatever, it doesn't matter. I need to be better, bottom line.
Attitude, yes I know it needs to change. It has to a point, but I'm a realist, I look at a sitch and decide the most consistant outcome, and use that as my measuring stick. It works great at work and with a lot of life goals, but not great it in a R.
I know positives are positives, I guess I've just been so focused on trying not to over-react to them like I did in the first month or so after the bomb. Time is my ally in this, and patience needs to become a close friend!
I understand many people on here don't see any positives, and I'm sorry if I don't appear to appreciate them. They are important to me, and they help me to stay motivated. Without a doubt I want to W to be my W again. I want to continue to fix the mistakes I've made and change the aspects of me that I know are unacceptable to me.
We'll see how things go tonight. As always thanks for setting me straight Bond.
SIC
Me - 34 W - 33 M - 8 years T - 15 years D7, D5, D2 Bomb Nov 10/2010 "I'm not happy and INILWY" W Staying for the kids Mar 13/2011
