As the Bolt Turns

[Bolt]

Bolt,

I don't think this is a uncommon thing to go through the up swing and then down again. You must take a moment to think clearly right now and remove yourself from the sitch.

Where did you make progress?

What did you to achieve that progress?

What have you done different?

I still believe you guys need to move to the next step of getting professional help. DB session maybe?

I'm trying to setup an apt with my therapist this afternoon. Just so I can figure out how to handle it.

I hear ya, 2step - but I don't understand how I got here so suddenly. I'm almost half expecting her to come up to me later this afternoon, hug me and say, "I'm sorry that I'm putting you through this. I'm just confused."

I don't WANT to have that expectation but I feel that. I know her so well that I honestly feel this is fear. When she is afraid, she lashes out at those that she loves so it justifies her fear - see? he can't go through the hard times...

I'm going to act as if. Act as if things are positive. Stay positive around her BUT give her her space.

I think this all started because she thought she had work today. She got up at 5am and I woke as well. I asked her what she was doing and she said she was getting ready for work. I told her she didn't work today. But now she was up...Probably didn't help things...