I think a 2X4 would be in order if I thought it would work. It won't. H is so selfish and caught up in what he is doing that a 2X4 wouldn't even phase him. The fog he is in isn't clearing. I feel I just need to walk away. I need to stop letting him get to me. I let my guard down and that is completely my fault. I will not do it again.
Thanks for the thoughts and advice. Everyday is going to be a huge struggle...but one day this will be easier.
That one day you're talking about could even be tomorrow! Hang in there, Wanda!