lost

[verysad2day]

I can't stop thinking about three things:

1) last night when I said "obviously you don't want to be here" and he said nothing. In the past he might have said something like..."Don't worry I will be gone soon enough"
Does this look like a positive or a negative (maybe didn't want me crying and hanging on him, like I did Jan. 1st)

2) Why text about my wallet.

3) Why text about a dinner meeting tonight. He would have never done that (since the bomb) he would just respond when pathetic me asked about dinner.

I am trying to see positive but don't want to get my hopes up