It's sad that my wife still thinks I'm addicted to porn, and that I always will be. She made a comment about it earlier in the evening today. Now that, my friends -- porn addiction to be exact - is something your spouse will probably never be able to see no matter how much you LRT or 180, because it's such a secretive vice that, in order for a spouse to actually see changes in you, s/he will be required to let their guard down and open up their hearts. However, this is where I have and need to put my faith and trust in God. I just have to be willing to surrender...i.e. Let His will be done.
Pardon moi for being a tad bit more pessimistic than usual, but what a bloody croc of a Valentine's Day today. I had a great time with our son, but my wife was mostly very cold to deal with. Maybe she was having a lousy V-Day too. Who knows?
Alamo, one the reasons my W wanted the D is because she caught me watching porn one day. The thing being that i started going that route just recently because our relationship was drying out and somehow my W and I were never able to confront it and make it better.
In the whole scheme of things i would say don't worry about this one aspect.
Regarding valentine's day, I would say feel good that you had your time with your son. My daughter and W live with her parents about 250miles from my place and i somehow was expecting that my W would make my daughter call up. This morning i tried to dismiss those expectations too. As i said, detachment brings peace into your life that you will need so much.
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