Newbie- Very Lost- Not Sure where to start

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I am looking for some feedback on my sitch and comments.. Anybody have any words of encouragement? Really struggling to stay focused..

tdb: I sympathize with you man. My W too has been on the same path. She just wants the D and move on. I tried slowing things down, but she keeps calling and pushing me. So i changed my reasoning to go ahead with the D. As people say here, it is just a piece of paper. I am then planning on changing gears and start courting her once again. I am just motivating myself that i can get to date again (with my wife!). Sometimes it is hard to keep this hope going, but right now thats the only thing i have.