Shine on you crazy diamond...

[zengypsy]

I don't think he would approve of the job I have done with my marriage or the way I have treated her. Man, I have some serious work to do...

I want to finish with this:

Dad, mom is doing well. She loves you with all her heart and we did everything we could today to make her feel loved. I will not let her be alone and scared. You have my word on that as your son. I love you, dad. Wherever you are tonight, please hear my call. Please forgive me for what I have done. Please forgive me for not loving my W the way you taught me a man should. I feel like I have failed you. I am not the man I thought I was and I might spend the rest of my life paying for it. If you can help me with this, I would greatly appreciate it. Please do me one last favor if you can. Please, please bring her home. Your son needs you, he needs you really badly...

FOBD

FOBD:

OMG....I am sitting in my office in tears. I am so incredibly moved by your words. It's a good scary because your feelings are pretty much spot on with what I said to my mom yesterday. I feel like I failed her and that she'd be disappointed in me for the way I treated my H.

I know this may gross some of the BITS out, but my mom was cremated and I have her urn at my house by a window overlooking my backyard and the river which was her fave spot. It just seemed the "proper" way for me honor her wishes. I live in my childhood home.

You inspire me FOBD -