Shine on you crazy diamond...

[FellOnBlackDays]

Honestly, buddy, I don't know. I was having a pretty good week. No crying, eating well, sleeping fine, going to the gym. But something just came over me this weekend. I think part of it may have been that I knew I was going to have to see her and wasn't looking forward to it. When you combine that with the loneliness, the dreams I keep having about being with her, the mess I have to deal with tomorrow (Monday would have been my parent's 40th anniversary but my father died 11 years ago), and her attitude today, I just feel a bit defeated right now. But, as always, you guys are here to pick me up.

You know, my W spent the entire afternoon with my family yesterday at that shower and didn't even mention it today. Don't you think that would have been something to bring up?

BITS

FOBD

[lostinscared]

Dear, sweet, FOBD,

Get you a$$ out of bed. Seriously. You don't have time for this right now. You know it, I know it. Get up and make a plan today for next weekend. Because you cannot do this to yourself. Is your house still half full??? What are you going to do about that? Even small changes will help.

All of you are right on about your W and her stupid apt. In all likelihood, she has got a nasty surprise coming. And when that comes, what kind of shape are you going to be in? You need to get yourself ready. And you also need to get yourself to a point where you believe no matter what happens, you are going to be ok. Tough, I know. Boy, do I ever know but it has to be that way.

Big, big hugs to you, my friend. You are doing so much better than you give yourself credit for!!!!

I am praying for you.

LIS

[Denver_2010]

I know FOBD. Some days, or string of days, are just tougher than others for one reason or another. Really, all we can do is trudge through them as you did this past weekend. You're doing great man.

I agree with LIS... start early with some plans for this weekend.

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Denver

[dixiegal]

FOBD,

Just stopping by to check on you. I gotta agree w/LIS if your still in bed...GET UP!!! Ya gotta keep moving cause, you got get your plan together for the Wedding!!!! Listen here, it's awesome that she is still coming around your family. WHY? Cause, that means she's still connected to them - you! Get it?!
That she is coming to the Wedding..great oppty to DB your rear off! You gotta get yourself looking like a rock star....you don't get chances like that...plus the Wedding might bring back some ole feelings...like your Wedding???

So, get going!!!! You can do this....

Hugs...Dixie

[ironMan]

FOBD, get up. I'm your dad right now .... you're a little kid that fell down and is scared. Look at me, you're not seriously hurt. Get up.

Keep putting one foot in front of the other. Keep climbing this hill.

I have your back.

We're going to live to see the top of this hill even though we don't know what will be there when we get to it.

So, I know you hurt. I hurt too. But, let's keep walking. We're going to be fine.

[lostinscared]

I just want to cry, Ironman. God, there was something just so beautiful about that!

[2stepboogie]

FOBD

Was up you still around..............How are you feeling?

[Denver_2010]

I think that FOBD mentioned that he was going on a biz trip today. I'm guessing he is out on the town... wherever he is!

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Denver

[2stepboogie]

I hope he is in Jersey

[ironMan]

Hi FOBD,
As you may have guessed ..... I have a tough, guy for a dad. Since your dad is no longer with us, I wanted to share mine with you. So, FOBD .... here is the only email/letter I can ever recall my dad sending me that had deep emotional stuff in it. I got this from my dad tonight ... but ... it really is to all of us, BITS:

"IronMan: I just wanted you to know how proud of you your mother and I are of you and how you are dealing with your marriage troubles. I know it is very hard to understand what is going on and how it will all end.

Don't let yourself get so stressed out you get tied in knots. It will all work out for you.

You are handling your situation so much better than I could, we are with you in whatever happens.

Good luck with everything and know how much we love you."

Not bad advice for us FOBD. I just wanted to share. Oh, and yeah ... don't get too tied up in knots. This will all work out for us.