I know how hard it is to let go and let God, but I believe with my whole heart, that if I don't let God be in total control, this journey will take much longer. Remember as you pray for your spouse, pray for God to make you the wife and mother God wants you to be. Your H has a great base of faith, here in DB land we talk about making our own changes. Let God heal you and change you so your H can see the new you and Jesus through you.
Right now, I am praying for God to break the devil's grasp on my H and OW. I don't believe I could have any kind of conversation with H as long as he is with OW. I really don't want to either, because I know that would not be H really talking but the devil.
Be kind to yourself, trust God, His time is not our time. Recognize the crazy behavior of MLC and forgive your H, for yourself, not him. Show H unconditional love and the next 2 years could offer HUGE changes in your sitch. Trust and believe that God will heal and restore your marriage. As long as you are standing, act as if this is going to happen. You know where they talk about GAL and having that little smile on your face as if you know something H doesn't? Guess what, I have that smile all the time, because I know God is on my side, and H doesn't.
God is in control!
Lorie W47 H48 D16 M20 H gone 11/9/10 lives w/OW
When you forgive,you heal. When you let go,you grow. When you cry to God, you surrender. When you love unconditionally, you show others Christ's love.
