Really hard time.... III

[what next?]

There were so many things that happened through the process that I look back on now and see how I messed up. Like she would give me baby steps and I would go hungry hungry hippo on her lol

My problem right now is that I'm not seeing the baby steps. I guess that the communication is a baby step but it just kills me that her tone is so nonchalant and I'm dying inside. At least I'm able to keep it straight. I just want the divorce to be over so that I can see if she is really gone or not. I feel like I will know something within a couple of months of it being final. If she doesn't come back to me at all I would say it must be time for me to move on.