I am trying to breathe....it's not working. I am tired of being the piece of crap on the bottom of his shoes. I will not let him make me feel this way again. Two weeks ago I was strong and I was feeling good about myself. I knew it was going to happen all over again. He comes back and says what i oh so need to hear and then continues on like he never said it. I just can't believe I fell for it AGAIN!!! I am so stupid. He knows me well enough to know just what to say so he can CAKE EAT!!!! I can not do this with him in my life.

I have not been this angry in a long time. If hockey is more important than his W and kids (who by the way are super big on V-day cuz it's when mom and dad got married) then he can just stay away. It hurts then and it hurts me. H has way to much power and I can not live like that. I read somewhere on one of these posts that the spouse that cares the least about the R has all the power and control. So it is time for me to quit caring and quit giving a crap.

Thanks to all of you that read my rambling and venting. I don't know what I would do without all of you guy!!!!!

Me:35, 2 kids from PR
H: 37, 2 kids with me
T: 15 years
M: 8 years in Feb.
Second walk out: 14-01-2011
H had PA: 2007