Yes, that's true Zen. Grass isn't greener, just different grass and it all needs fertilizing, dethatching, watering and mowing.
He's jumping pretty much at any additional opportunity to see the kids when he can and he doesn't have something else on the go.
As for fab me; he doesn't see me that way, that's clear. I see the challenges that Denver is fighting with his W still seeing the old him -and new him, vs. the new man with no history and it's really hard for me to acknowledge I'm going to be in the same position...if I ever get that chance.
Today given what it is and how things went, I am very pessimistic about my chances for reconcilation. I even thought I should see a lawyer and get it over with.
As much as I'm here, I'm also thinking I'm still torn in two dirctions: after 17 months of separation trying to decide if I honour the vows I made beyond what I already have done, or just letting H. go completely -divorce and we both go our merry way. H. has already said he's prepared to move to Houston because of the job situation here.
I'm still stuck, and the words in H's email keep going around in my brain.
BITS Me-51, WAS-52 Kids 2 M-26yrs, H.left 2009, 2 more Bomb drops, Reconnection spring 2013 Change is inevitable, personal growth is a choice. Love is a action and choice you make, every day.
