It's been a couple of months since I posted....so here is the update...
My H and I were legally divorced as of Dec.19th. I pushed for it because I was done but he came back claiming he wasn't sure he wanted it. I thought he was going to stop it be he that didn't happen. I was struggling with that before the D was final I actually tried to get my H (now XH) to stop it....well, he didn't want the D but he didn't really want to stop it either...At first I felt kind of strange about it but then I decided I don't have enough time or energy to worry about it. My XH is with me most nights and spends the majority of the weekend with me. For now, it seems to be working well enough. It isn't perfect but as long as he is treating me with respect, I'm okay. I'm not sure what the future has in store but my XH tells me that he wants me in his life seems to be making plans for the future as much as he can. So we will see. He even sent me a roses today...he hasn't done that for a veeerrrry long time.
I wish you all a Happy Valentine's Day. This can be a tough place to be on days like today so don't forget to love yourselves.
