I wish I could just listen!!! If you knew me in real life, you'd know I am a listeing genius. Not a big talker. But he wants me to talk. What do I do??? I can't tell him everything I'm thinking and feeling right now. First, I'm still a bit angry, but I would never tell him that because it would not accomplish a thing and I still don't think I'm right about being angry. I just am. Second, I don't want to show all my cards. Third, I don't know sometimes I get frustrated. We've been over the same ground before and eventually I feel like we just need to move on and make a plan. I just don't feel the need to talk about how I feel about what happened. I will listen to him and validate him all day long but that's not what he wants.
2Step, I do not know 100% that he had an A. That is absolutely true. But I have enough evidence that something happened. This is why I think he wants me talking because he feels guilty and he wants me to punish him or something??? I just refuse to give him a list of everything that is wrong with him. For my part, I just need to focus on the future and how we interact.
Ugh, I know I need to progress but let's not forget 2Step that a few days ago I needed your advice to get through one conversation. How do things get so freaking weird and screwed up??? Thanks guys for your advice and for dealing with me. I'm just kind of down on myself right now. I need to do better. I really do.
