So, W asks me this morning if it's ok if she comes to the house for lunch at 11, and says she has to come by to get a few things also. I told her that was ok. I let her control the conversation at first. She wanted to know if she could take my D with her to Disney World next week. I told her I would think about it. Then I began to tell her that I loved her and wanted to work on our M. I told her that she could me back into our house as easily as she moved out, and that I did not hold anything against. I continued to talk to her, and she said that she needed time, she was not going to make that decision today. I told her that our M would not be the same that it would be better. She said she knew that too. I then brought up that she told me she needed to be by herself bc she had never been alone, but then she moved in with OM. this is where the conversation went bad and she said she did not want to work on anything with me. I told her that I was not interested on being friends with her if she did not want to work on our M. She then grabbed a few items from the house and left.
I know that I did not follow DB guidelines, but I am ok with that. I am going to go dark now and see what happens. At the begining of our conversation, I really felt that she was listening to me, and that she was not completely against the possibility of returning home. I don't think I ruined any progress I may have made with her, but only time will tell.
BITS
M:34 W:28 SD:9 D:6 (pr) M:3 T:6 Separated 1/16/11 ILYBNILWY 10/25/10 PA discovered 11/12/10, began about 10/1/10
I am not who I was, I am being remade, I am new...