Re-Bolt

[Bolt]

I think I'm ready for the piecing forum. W and I are back together not talking about D anymore and figuring out our life for the future. We're not sure where it will go but we're both committed to trying to make it work.

My sitch is here if you care to read up:
http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2125911&page=1

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2129848&page=1


I'm now trying to get through the days without analyzing where our R is and how the W is thinking.

Although we are still together, she hasn't said ILY or have we ML in 2.5 months now. She says that she's not even remotely interested in that right now. She continues to ask me to be patient and just let things happen.

We had a great V-Day yesterday (she was too busy today so we did it yesterday). I gave her the whole day to herself while I went to a friend's house to shower/get ready. I drove back to "her" house to pick her up. She looked fantastic. Skimpy black dress - simply gorgeous.

She wanted our oldest D to take our picture in the backyard. I wanted put my hands all over her but alas I couldn't:)

Dinner was good until we talked about R talk. It got a little depressing. I tried not to have any expectations about the "date" but this wasn't going where I liked. It wasn't BAD talk but it didn't make me feel super about the future.

I think she could sense that and she changed the subject TO a better future together.

We're moving back to her hometown in a month. It's tough because we love it here in San Diego and have a great community here and an awesome house. BUT there are a lot of things that against us.

I made a great living in the entertainment biz but grew tired of it. I got let go from a company I helped succeed and wasn't ready to take a lower job just to work. I found that my career wasn't that important anymore - my family and W were.

Anyway, it's 'spensive in So Cal and our house is upside down. So we're moving to a MUCH more affordable rent. But it's 8 states away.

Needless to say, the move is trying on all of us. W even said last night, "Let's just stay on hold until we get settled in the new place." I took it as there's just way too much taking our attention away. Let's get this done so we can focus on each other.

I'm cool with that...I think...