That's exactly where we are man. I feel exactly the same.
It seems that we've gotten over the hump of the D talk but we're just working our way to getting better.
XYZ, by the way, this is the way it does work it seems. When I hear from others that if you basically kiss and make up, it doesn't last long term. That's what we have to keep telling ourselves.
Dude, I know exactly what you are feeling. I had a date planned last night where I gave the W the whole day to herself. I went to a friend's house, showered and got ready there to come pick her up at "her" house. I came to the front door with one rose and everything. She dug it. We took a couple's pic which we haven't done in a long time. She looked smoking hot too! She knows how to push my buttons.
Dinner started great. I was asking her questions like, what's your fave movie/music that kind of stuff.
Then we talked about the R. I didn't want to but it turned there. She wants it to work but just doesn't know. What I don't get is the idea that she's not sure she loves me. That's very odd to me because she sure is showing it that she does. I think there's a lot of confusion on what feelings of love are for her.
In the middle of the dinner, I couldn't eat. I wanted to run for the door and say F it. But then we hit a chord. We both agreed to just let it flow and stop constantly analyzing things. I said as long as we are on the path to a happy marriage and will be honest, it will be cool. We agreed and it ended happily.
But XYZ, I'm right there with feeling like I'm walking on eggshells to not tick her off or something stupid. That's not me! I don't want to go to old Bolt but I don't entirely like this new Bolt. I want new Bolt with all of the GOOD qualities of Old Bolt.
Let's help each other through it, man. I'm feeling great today. Got my W fill - she snuggled this morning and I helped her get all of her stuff ready for her Brownie Troop. It felt good being a huge help instead of the normal bump on the log
Stay strong XYZ!!
m 40 w 38 married 15 together 18 d11, d8 bomb 12/19/10 2nd bomb 3/30/11 COMPLETELY DONE
