I think, and it's only my opinion, that you will have to let her go, before you stand a chance of getting her back. You cannot control her, only yourself. I know, because I used to lie awake wondering what my H was doing when he is away traveling. Nothing I can do.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim