Honestly, buddy, I don't know. I was having a pretty good week. No crying, eating well, sleeping fine, going to the gym. But something just came over me this weekend. I think part of it may have been that I knew I was going to have to see her and wasn't looking forward to it. When you combine that with the loneliness, the dreams I keep having about being with her, the mess I have to deal with tomorrow (Monday would have been my parent's 40th anniversary but my father died 11 years ago), and her attitude today, I just feel a bit defeated right now. But, as always, you guys are here to pick me up.

You know, my W spent the entire afternoon with my family yesterday at that shower and didn't even mention it today. Don't you think that would have been something to bring up?

BITS

FOBD

Me: 39
W: 36
T: 15 yrs
M: 9 yrs
S: 09/10

So you can get on with your search, baby
And I can get on with mine
And maybe someday we will find,
That it wasn't really wasted time...