I went to church this morning with MIL FIL SD and D. During church W sent me several text messages mostly about paying the bills, one of which stated she was not meeting me for lunch tomorrow. I did not respond to any of her texts, and emailed her about one of the bills, which she said she would pay and thanked me for sending it to her. After we got back from church, she picked up her D at her parents house. When she walked into her parents house I said hello, and told her that I had payed one of the bills she asked me about. She gave me an evil look and did not acknowledge me. She was only there for a few minutes, but did not speak to me at all. About 2 hours after she left, she sent me a text appologizing for her attitude, then asked me when our car insurance was due (may). I only responded about the bill, not her appology. I recieved several more texts from her, but only responded to the ones regarding our bills (which she said were now paid through February). I am dissappointed but relieved about her canceling our lunch for tomorrow (I did not let her know that it bothered me-I never acknowledged her). I feel detached today, but do not know how I am going to feel tomorrow. I still cried several times today, but I keep reminding myself that I will be a better person, that I am already that person.
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M:34 W:28 SD:9 D:6 (pr) M:3 T:6 Separated 1/16/11 ILYBNILWY 10/25/10 PA discovered 11/12/10, began about 10/1/10
I am not who I was, I am being remade, I am new...