Deja vu seems a lot different this time around...

[mj144]

I know what you are saying about conveying myself in a positive way and I think I do a pretty good job of it. I am extremely outward in my love and affection towards my kids when I am around. She has to see that. I try and stay positive when talking about my job opportunities, however, she has burst my bubble on more than one occasion commenting something to the effect that I keep talking about getting a certain job when I tell her I think I am close to getting job. I am just trying to be optimistic and she views it as me making empty promises. Its kind of deflating when I don't get her support and instead I get her comments of I've heard that before. What the hell am I supposed to do. I suppose it is hard for me to really know how positive I am coming across.

Over my dead body will I apologize to my FIL. I have nothing to apologize for. I want to find out what the F was behind his tirade and just clear the air and show him I want to smooth things out. Apology from me...F NO!

I just want to get out of this f'in rut of not working and not having any self worth!!!!!