MJ, Lotus, 2step, Dixie and Denver, Your words were the "pick me up" I needed this evening. I can't tell you how comforting it is to know you are there. Hitting this board each night is becoming the highlight of my day. I don't know if that is a good thing or sad.
MJ, you may think you were rambling, but your words were comforting none the less. Don't sell yourself short.
BITS, I just don't get it. Every time I think I have the animal known as the WAS figured out, there is a new, painful twist. I just don't understand my W right now and I guess I shouldn't try. I am frustrated because other spouses that left around the same time my W did are already starting to come back around in some way for other folks on here. But, not mine. She still seems to be the same bitter, pissed off person she was when she left. Come on, it's been five freaking months already!!!! In that period, I have run the entire gambit of emotions and are ready to fix this thing. I have been sad, horribly pissed and now I have accepted this situation for what it is. But, I am also spending time here, reading every night and seeing a C to help me understand. She is just sitting there carrying our her crappy agenda.
Well, I did get one thing figured out this weekend. She will be attending my brother's wedding. After I made the reversal on my position, I kind of dropped the whole thing. I figured she wouldn't have the balls to face my family anyway and I never thought she would show up. Well, one of my relatives threw my future SIL a shower yesterday and my W showed up. She did do one weird thing. She got there before my mother and sister. So, she sat in her car in the driveway until my mother arrived and then she walked in with her. She has been doing things with my relatives for 15 years, but yesterday she would not go into my aunt's house alone. I think she must have been worried about my family. My mother did get a bit upset though. Apparently after she got inside and got comfortable, she started "peacocking" around at this occasion also going on about her new life. My mother was not happy about this at all. She stated that my W was kind of coming off a bit arrogant. My sister wasn't happy either. And, I found out that she is also the coordinator for my SIL's bachelorette party. So, apparently she is just going to continue to "cozy" up to my family while she ignores me at every chance she gets. I guess I should be happy. She at least still cares about them. And, hopefully spending time with them will remind her what she is voluntarily giving up with this b/s. Not to mention, my family is taking the "high road" and coming out smelling like a rose. While her family shuns me, even though it was their freaking daughter that did the walking, my family is still embracing her with open arms even though many of them don't appreciate her crap right now. I wonder how they would feel if they knew about her little EA with "Captian *sswipe in Canada? Just a bit of sarcasm there. Sorry
Well, I guess I will spend some time checking up on the rest of the BITS and go to sleep. Another day without her is now past me. 161 and counting...
BITS never walk alone!
FOBD
Me: 39 W: 36 T: 15 yrs M: 9 yrs S: 09/10
So you can get on with your search, baby And I can get on with mine And maybe someday we will find, That it wasn't really wasted time...
