Lost, hurt and scared ...

[MeMyselfandI]

Thanks Courageous, yes defintely positive and light hearted which was nice. I would suspect a big load has been lifted off of him now that the OW thing is out in the open and I have been good about it. He has always thought of me as being a very jealous type so it's a huge 180 for me as well. Who knows, maybe taking some of the wind out of his sails too... in fact, maybe both of them because I'm sure he's told her that I'm crazy jealous and they will need to be ready for a fight when I find out so my reactions has likely totally blown them away. I may be just faking it till I make it right now but I'm really not sure. I think I have actually realized deep down that he needs to go down this path with OW to find out about himself. I'm just so worried that the kids are going to get hurt in the process but I'll be there for them to pick up whatever shattered pieces need picking up.

As for S, I really don't know. It certainly didn't seem like the injury was bothering him ... it seemed to be much more deep to me. As I said, he doesn't really express emotion much, for example, a few years ago, we had to put down one of our dogs. Both kids adored this dog tremendously and he had been around since they were born. S didn't express any emotion about it at all. He just went on about his business while the rest of us mourned deeply for days. I'm afraid that he is bottling things up and it scares me that one day, he is just going to blow. The look in his eyes today is what really shook me.

I think I'll try to pick him up at school for lunch one day this week and take him on a special "mommy lunch" and see how he's doing.