We had planned a trip to Chicago a few months back and since our separation, he ended up going alone and spending the weekend with 'our' friend. Before he left all our mutual friends were posting to him and wishing him a good trip etc. Then while he was there he kept uploading pics of his sightseeing and our mutual friends again were commenting.. including the OW.. who also used to be my friend.
I was just hurt because we should have made this trip together in the past and seeing and reading about all the fun he was having was hurtful to me and i felt some of our friends were being insensitive knowing we were on each others list. It feels like everyone has forgiven and forgotten what he's done yet I still live with the emotional pain and heartache everyday.
I want to appear strong and not make it appear as if it bothers me when it clearly does, so i'm conflicted. If i give him the impression that it bothers me so much will he ever feel he can home ? if he does come home it will only be for financial reasons but it would give me the opportunity to practice what i'm learning and TRY my darndest to make him see the new me. I need that.
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"Good memories tell you that your past was worth it, bad ones tell you that you were strong enough to go on"
