Shine on you crazy diamond...

[mj144]

Hey Bud,
I am looking in the mirror when I just got through reading your posts from the last few days. I feel exactly the same way you do. I get the same feeling from my W EVERY DAY when I see her. I have not been posting on the site so much here recently because I haven't really had the chance to keep up with everyone's posts. Unfortunately, there are just too damn many of us here and I can't keep up. I have limited time in front of a computer since I am not set up properly at the place I am renting and when I am at my house, I am trying to job search or spending time with my kids.

I guess the only thing I have to add to everything you are saying is that you are not alone. Your comment about indifference hit home. I was just telling a buddy the same thing about my W. The really scary thing is that her indifference has been ongoing for some time now. What does that tell me? I am afraid to say that I think my M is on its last breath.

I should probably update on my own thread, but I just can't seem to come up with any words to describe what has been going on in my sitch lately. I feel like I have wasted a lot of time and valuable resources in all my B.I.T.S. and S.I.T.S by not updating my thread, but when I can't find words to write or things to comment on, what is the point? I am stuck in an ongoing purgatory that just won't quit.

See, I just rambled on for 3 paragraphs and said absolutely nothing worthwhile. I apologize for posting a bunch of garbage to your thread, but again, I wanted you to know that there is someone feeling exactly the same way you do right now, I am just not able to really express my thoughts and feelings. In the past, I was so much more in touch with how I was feeling and could write poems and letters spilling my guts to my W like no other. I guess I know what writers go through when they have a block. Make it 4 paragraphs of pure babbling.

B.I.T.S.