I couldn't take the pain of seeing all the posts of my H on facebook so i blocked him.. now i am sitting here wondering if that was the right thing to do ?
He at some point I believe will have to come home due to financial issues and that is my hope so that I can have my second chance and DB my butt off.
Right now i think i've given him the impression that i don't want to have anything to do with him so how can i make him know that he is welcome to come home even though i've told him it's his home and he has every right to be here.. aren't my actions telling him otherwise ? I'm afraid of losing my opportunity to show him how much i've changed.
There is a few reasons right now why he says he can't come back, ones he admitted to 'it wouldn't be healthy' 'he doesn't want to hurt me' but i can't help but think that there are other reasons... like I have a feeling that he KNOWS he made a mistake and is afraid of coming back in case he falls in love with me again and is worried he'll be trapped in an unhappy marriage. His grandparents have the saddest most unhappy existence ever and i know he's been fearful of ending up like them.
I thought ceasing contact would be good but now I'm not so sure. Should I unblock him and just ignore the posted stuff and just act 'as if' ?
help please
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