Really hard time.... III

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I'm just slow I guess lol.

At least I was able to get the papers done today... would have been rough to do it on valentines day lol

Who are all of the BITS?

I follow Denver, FOBD, and 2step

[Denver_2010]

There are quite a few, but Hope, Lostinscared, Gypsy, Dixie, MJ, Bolt, SIC, Angel... I'm probably missing quite a few...

Look for:

BITS

[2stepboogie]

ironman is a BITS

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Well... I took her the papers tonight. I was going to wait until tomorrow but I was coming out with friends and after I got ready I felt good and, if I do say so, looked good lol. So I figured good a time as any. She came to the door and was like "yeah?" I think she expected some sort of pleading. Instead I just smiled and said here are your papers. I talked about a couple of other things that she had emailed me about and joked about not being able to get my computer worked on by s friend because I couldn't let him have access to our pics. She laughed and I wrapped it up saying let me know if you need anything... that was about it. Nice contrast with her being in our dark house alone and on her robe obviously in for the night but I was going out and looked nice. Seeing her smile is burned into my brain and hopefully she was surprised and left with something to think about too.

Now I just have to follow through on my plans for the ninth and ENJOY MYSELF lol.

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Wow, my auto filler on my phone made that almost unreadable lol

[2stepboogie]

Good for you man, one of the hardest things I think is to not fall apart. Sometimes you plant the see and leave. That is all we can do.

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Yeah... it really [censored] to have to DB by giving in to the divorce itself but hopefully I am showing her a man she wont want to leave. I just feel like she has to follow through with this and to back out would really be letting herself down. All I know is that im db'ing my but off!

[2stepboogie]

That is all we can do. I am in a total funk today. I always am on Sundays but it's not as bad as previous weekends. I use to love my weekends

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Yeah... I'm a big race fan and the season is starting back up so that helps. Plus the snow is gone and I can put the top down!

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So... what should be my strategy? We are going to have less contact and I guess I should go dark for a little while but I want to get some ideas on how to handle the actual divorce and initiating contact.