I'm so sorry that your feeling down. The weekends are the hardest for us. I understand how you feel. I get so excited and happy for everyone. Then it hits me....I may not get another chance. I understand about the dream too..I have them EVERY single day about H. I with ya...
But, here is the deal. Your W is not in the place right now to really hear you. Just like my friend said yesterday to me. (former WAS) She was so pisst at herself, but she blamed her H for it. She convinced herself that all this was because of him. Even, though she had the affair and etc. She even said that he would be so nice/sweet to her. How it would make her even more mad!!! The real deal was that she was mad at herself and full of her own guilt. She was lost....confused.
I feel like if you wrote her a letter or anything it would make it worse for you both. It would make her pull back and prolong your pain. I don't want that for you sweet FOBD.
Listen here, you have been here to hold me and a few others up when we were really down. It's okay to feel beat down. You are human and are going through some of the hardest things ever! But, you gotta STAND UP and be proud of the man that you are becoming! We are all proud of you and I for one feel blessed to have you as a fellow BITS!
But, right now....cry, be mad, hurt and just let it all out. It's okay...then get back to DBing! We all got your back Capt!
Praying for you~
Dixie
"Life is short, Pray hard!"
Me: 40 H: 39 M: 17 yrs - Together 18 1/2yrs No kids Seperated: May 18, 2006 EA/Poss PA with OW for 6 months prior to leaving. 2nd Bomb dropped: Dec. 23, 2010
