Well, I was hoping for some encouragement or advice, but perhaps my posts are too long-winded? I tend to go on and on.

I've been feeling pretty discouraged lately, but I'm trying to stay positive. H is still texting and we are supposed to go to church together this evening, but lately he's been a bit wishy-washy when it comes to spending time together. He told me in a text that he feels guilty when he's around me, but there doesn't seem to be anything I can do about that. I stay upbeat and light when we're together. I'm pretty frustrated and sad, but am "acting as if".

Putting myself first is my main focus this week. Pampering myself, exercising, reading and eating good, structured meals are my goals this week. I have a major event at work this week, so that will take up a good portion of my week.

Me: 33, H: 32
M: 12 years T: 13 years
No kids
D-Day: 7/2009
Separated: 10/12/10
Future Unknown
GITS

"There's a fire starting in my heart, reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark." - Adele