Lost, hurt and scared ...

[MeMyselfandI]

Thanks Courageous, yes, I think I did ok. Went to both the kid's hockey games and that went well also. I guess I have a hard time with understanding what they are thinking by introducing the OW to kids. To me, unless this is someone who is going to be in the kid's lives for the long haul, I wouldn't do it but I guess this is the "normalizing" thing everyone talks about. It is just very hard to have OW honing in on our kids; however, I need to keep in mind that they are "our kids", I do still have a relationship with H because of that and that is something she can not take away, regardless. This is one area where he is being very cautious as the kids really do mean the world to both him and I.

I thought about it last night at the second game, when our S got hurt and both H & I went down to the dressing room to check on him. She was left, sitting in the stands, all by herself and must have felt a little out of place. I'm sure things like this will start to wear on her eventually and I will just need to continue to raise above all of it and watch the rollercoaster from my seat floating above it all.

My boarder came with me to the hockey game last night ... he is 26 and works with me and is like a big brother to our kids. He made me laugh a few times. First, when he saw OW, he said, wow, she's not very cute ... and went on to say, if there were a group of girls standing in a bar, she'd be the one I wouldn't buy a drink for. Then, when H came walking out, he was wearing these awful jeans, you know, the ones with the fake fraying all over them that the "kids" are all wearing these days. My boarder says, wow, he really shouldn't be wearing those. How old is he? I giggled as I thought MLC! It's funny how people around them can see right through all of this.