The thing I must remember is that her beliefs are driving her behavior.
As long as she believes she knows me, that I will never change, and that I cannot ever give her the kind of chemistry, lust and passion that she believes will make her happy, then she is compelled to leave.
And until her needs are met, they will continue driving her behavior, so the only option she can see right now, is to start looking for happiness elsewhere.
Our situation is complicated by the fact she is the one keeping me away - so right now I don't have a lot of options in showing her physical passion.
After we got married, we did not complete the immigration process before I came back to Canada for Christmas, and now I cannot come back into the states, or go back home to Colorado until she does.
So I am learning to let go, and at the same I am feeling like those confident divers in James Cameron's new movie "Sanctum".
"I have control."
I am giving her the time and space she wants to do whatever it is she needs, while doing my best to manage my own thaoughts, feelings and behavior in ways that truly serve me.
Hey! Ho! Let's go!
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
