New Court Date set.....

[zengypsy]

Hey FOBD, 2, Hope, Denver, LIS, Mach:

Sorry I was out of pocket today. I did some retail therapy after I got the mail! Nothing like buying a new pair of hot leopard print shoes! Now I just need a oppty to wear them!


Anyway....I appreciate all your thoughts and prayers. You guys always kick my a$$ in a good way!! I have had so many people tell me it's just a piece of paper. A friend of mine has been telling me this for months. She said you can always marry each other again, she said her brother's done it twice! My plan is to still DB even after the D is final. I want to start to be friends again and hopefully build on that. My thought has always been he loved me once and we both lost our way. I've worked hard to be the girl he fell in love with again and then some. I guess emotionally, he's not caught up to me yet to see my changes live and in person. I hope he does one day.

I knew that this D was emminent. But ya know when you get actual court docs it's like the door hitting you in the face over and over. My H is NOT going to break down. It's all about the control factor for him and he's been in the drivers seat since he left and he loves it because he feels he's never been in this seat for our entire marriage. He once said when he first left that I f'd up and that I have to pay the consequence and that consequence is a D. That one day I am going to be alone and I used to say no I'm not. I called his bluff one too many times. CT has a cooling off period for 90 days and that 90 days is done. Denver, you are very correct. The original D date was this past Tues (Feb 8). The only reason why the date got postponed was because I hired a L 2 weeks ago just for my protection and she had to notify the court.

2, I need a review of those 180's we talked about. You know how the mind gets when gets flooded.

FOBD, YOU crack me up. How do you know that one day you'll be getting a piece of paper? I'm afraid if I put that paper on my fridge, it will magically walk over to the stove and set itself on fire!!!

I also spent the day with a very good grammer school friend who's mom is 87 and just came out of the hosp and is now home under hospice care. She is the cutest little old Italian woman. She doesn't really speak English and my Italian is really bad but it felt really good to support her today. It's hard having a sick parent and know that the end may be close. My friends mom has congestive heart failure and is so very thin. Good deeds never go unrewarded isn't that what they say? This good deed was second nature to me.

Anyway....It's 1AM my time. GOtta try and get some shut eye.

I love ALL of you Bits/Sits. Thanks for walking with me in my twisted journey.