You are right that you need some time to process it. You need to allow yourself to go through the emotions.
However, please understand that everyone here is going to do anything they can to make sure you get through this and through this with your M, if we can help it. You're not going to get your 48 hours with us, unless you go dark with us, because we need to make sure we take care of you just like you do everyone else.
With that said, do your grieving, screaming or whatever. But do not let your W see it. She does not believe she cheated and that's her reality right now. You are not going to get the apology. And no one can take it back. This is crappy. Absolutely crappy and I know gut-wrenching. But before you do something that you'll regret later on, you need to be operating from a place that says that you acknowledge HER reality.
