You made some huge strides here this week. First, you finally admitted what you really were thinking. Then, you started articulating that to your H.
I like to hear that he is DB'ing. I like to hear that you acknowledge your gut that he cheated. It makes it easier to move on, doesn't it?
I especially like to hear that you're going to put that gun away. You were struggling to find answers that don't yet exist. You need to wait and see and yes, have a little patience. I don't think, though, impatience was necessarily bothering you. I think you had too much bottled up inside and you were struggling to keep it there. You needed to get honest with yourself. And you needed to get real honest about the fact that if he doesn't maintain his changes, then you needed out. Now, you know your path.
You already know the tools and frankly, you always knew the truth. There is a lot of hope in your situation.
Now, it's time to calm down and ride it out in the unknown for a little while. And continue to vent on here. Because we all need that!!! Especially those of you who are in reconciliation. You really have to control your emotions and that is just downright exhausting!!
