YR, Your H does not have a sense of what an amazing person you have been to stand through all of this. Really I think that those of us who stand are exceptional for trying to understand, trying to work through it, making changes in ourselves, and working hard.
You certainly do deserve better.
M: 16 years Bomb 4/07 OW 20s long gone Divorced 11/09 I remarried New Guy Cooperative r w/X regarding D