I have read your entire thread and must say you've got yourself quite a story there. My heart goes out to you.
You have found yourself among some amazing people who understand exactly what you are going through. They have walked or are walking this same path. It's a special group willing to pay it forward. We are here for each other.
Your H sounds very familiar. In fact I wonder if he is my H's long lost brother...
You sound good and strong. Take the advice and keep taking care of you. In the end, no matter how it turns out, it's only ourselves we can depend on.
