Each day I come here and read about the awesome progress made by 2step
My progress is far from awesome FOBD. As my W points out on occassion, "talking to you is nice, I enjoy it, but it is just talking. Doesn't change a thing" That is like a kick in the nuts everytime I hear it. Maybe it is true maybe it isn't I will prob never know.
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In my heart I am truly happy for you, but I can't help but be jealous at the same time.
Perfectly natural reaction
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Team, I am crying so hard right now I can barely see the screen. I now sleep each night in a coffin of my own making. I have hated her for so long for leaving and now reality has hit. I can't hate her. I pushed her out the door. She tried and tried to tell me something was wrong, but I dismissed it as PMS or other crap. I am a fool.
The truth is FOBD once you see what you have done and acknowledge your role it is really impossible to hate your spouse. This is when the real growth begins, because now you face your actions, own them, and recognize them for what they are. Real change can only come when you have reached this point. Will it change anything in your M? Who knows? I do promise you that you will feel better not worse. Your W too will face her demons and her role but only when she goes through the same thought process. It is not a coincidence that 80+% of people polled after their D has been final for over 2-3 years have said they regret the D. The difference you are seeing things now and you realize the down fall now, so what can you do? Kill the old you and let the new you be born.
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So, this is rock bottom. It is very cold and damp down here. There is not much light and nothing to sustain life on down here. I have made such a mess
Only one way to go now.
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Denver, I want to deeply apologize to you for stealing your thunder.
Maybe I am speaking out of turn here but I honestly don’t believe Denver minds all that much. Besides the BITS have been holding each other’s hands when we fall, I agree Denver has kind of become like the Sir Lancelot of the group but you started the BITS so doesn’t that make you King Arthur?
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I can't be your captain today
You must lead for there is no one who will accept the job!
Oh I almost forgot with your blessing I invited WhatNext to join the club. So why don't we go out there and show him why being a BITS is the best club we have ever been a part of.
