I'm sorry I have not been on the boards much. So, I'm giving you a big HUG! I've been in a funk...
But, sweetie 2step is right on point here. You gotta drop your guard, you have to do a 180 fast! You have to push yourself to be outgoing even when you don't feel like it with him. You gotta speak up and show him you care.
Maybe I'm wrong but, he is looking for something to come home to/a reason. He is not sure in his choice to leave....this is your door open sweet friend. Because, if he shuts it...it will be H(ll that you will have to walk through to get it even cracked back open. (what I'm in now) I know your in a "protect your heart" mode. I've been there too. Guess what? It made it worse!!
Our GOD has that job. You don't worry about that now. Think about Denver and how he sat there and listened to that hard news. You can do that too! When he comes over to talk, you stay FOCUSED on him. Just like you have been doing...no matter what he says...you have to show him love and acceptance.
Lis, I look back on my mistakes and I don't want you to go through that...I want yall to make it.
Think about what he has said about being unhappy...role play how you will act and what you will be like when he is around. "Fake it till you make it!"
Take a few moments to ask GOD to fill your home full of his love, to remove anger, fear and resentfulness. I did this last time H came by several weeks ago. It gave me a calm...
Sweet Lis, I know this is so hard right now. When they leave our home is the worst part. But, your doing it..your holding it together. I love your humor!!! I love your posts from 2step...I laughed so hard at that!!! You have such a sweet and caring nature! All this shines through even tho youre going thru this.....
So, don't forget how awesome you are....cause you are!!! Now, show that H too!!! You 180 your butt off!!!!
Praying for you always,
"Life is short, Pray hard"
Dixie
Me: 40 H: 39 M: 17 yrs - Together 18 1/2yrs No kids Seperated: May 18, 2006 EA/Poss PA with OW for 6 months prior to leaving. 2nd Bomb dropped: Dec. 23, 2010
Our GOD has that job. You don't worry about that now. Think about Denver and how he sat there and listened to that hard news. You can do that too! When he comes over to talk, you stay FOCUSED on him. Just like you have been doing...no matter what he says...you have to show him love and acceptance. 