Denver, Let me first apologize for not being here through all of this. I am very, very sorry, buddy. I had an awfully hard day at work today that lead to a dinner meeting and I am just now getting home and logging on. I did a poor job of being there for my fellow BITS today and I apologize.
As I read over the numerous posts tonight, I started from bottom up trying to see where I had left off. As I went further up and started to get an idea of what happened, I can honestly say that I started to get sick to my stomach. I had a feeling concerning what I would find when I got to your post. Buddy, I am so very sorry to hear the news. I know that you and I have gone back and forth about our suspicions concerns EA/PA's, but I think we both hoped that our hunches were incorrect. Well, at least you now know the truth and can move on. I know that doesn't seem like much of "pick me up," but it is true. No more sitting awake a night wondering. It is what it is and now you have to decide what you are going to do with what you have. Do you pack it in or do you pick up your soul, strap on "new" Denver and charge back up that hill. My vote is to "charge" like you never have before!!
It did take a huge amount of courage to come clean here with your friends. I think that was a huge victory in itself. Yes, I know right now you feel like you have been marched into a public square, stripped naked and stoned. But you have come out the other side with a whole new outlook on life that you will never forget. This truly is a trial by fire, my friend.
I feel proud to know you right now. In every battle, there is always one soldier who is willing to "take the point" and lead the way for the others even when he knows that he will not live to see the sunset. You were a very brave man in the past 24 hours and others will get to live to fight another day because of your example here.
Today, you have been given a "shift." This is a term I picked up from my C. Do you know what that is? It is a "gift" wrapped in "sh*t." Once you are able to peel through the horrible wrapping, you are able to reach the real gift inside. For you, the gift is that you now have a chance to be the man you always wanted to be. Now you have a chance to be the husband you always wanted to be. Now you have a chance to have the marriage you and your W always wanted. Sometimes, you can't look a "gift horse" in the mouth.
Charge on, my friend. Tonight, it is very true that you have taken a beating. But you will is strong, your mind is willing and your flesh is able. Go out there! Go and be the Denver we all know you can be. In a couple of weeks, you will wake up one morning with your W by your side and the head of the OM will be mounted over your fireplace!!!
BITS NEVER, EVER, EVER WALK ALONE, DAMN IT!!!!
FOBD
Me: 39 W: 36 T: 15 yrs M: 9 yrs S: 09/10
So you can get on with your search, baby And I can get on with mine And maybe someday we will find, That it wasn't really wasted time...
