Holy ...I have no idea where things are going right now. H is mister lovey and sweet. Is doing all the right things lately...and I feel I am just waiting for him to drop some sort of atomic bomb. I went into work today and left H at the house by himself. All I could think about was that I was going to come home to an emptied house. H had texted me wondering how long I was going to be...my first thought was definately to the negative.

Of course when I got home everything was fine and he was waiting for me to have a late lunch with him. Then we went to a used book store to try and find some books both of us are looking for...rented some movies and came back home. My IL's are coming over in awhile so H has left until I text him that they are gone. He doesn't want to talk with them right now. I guess I will see if he comes back tonight. I feel like I am on an emotional rollercoaster still.

One day at a time. No expectations from him.

Me:35, 2 kids from PR
H: 37, 2 kids with me
T: 15 years
M: 8 years in Feb.
Second walk out: 14-01-2011
H had PA: 2007