All people hurt people. This is true. But, Hope, you are not happy right now and you haven't been for awhile. I don't mean you're not happy because the situation is bad, you're not happy because you don't like who your husband is right now and you haven't for awhile. And instead of seeing the situation for what it is... Instead of just coming to terms with the facts that you laid out above, for some reason, you've decided to turn the gun on yourself??? You decide because he is not being a good husband and because you have had some bad relationships or made some bad choices, this must be what you deserve or you must not be reading the situation correctly or there must be something wrong with you. And sweetie, that's JUST NOT TRUE.
Now, I need to put this in context here. I'm not saying to leave him. I am not saying that continuing on with the program is not the right thing to do. But I want you to do these things with your eyes wide open. And with your eyes wide open, you need to deal with the fact that your gut is telling you he's cheating. So what's your next move?
Wow, you gave me a good shake of reality. I know I needed it.
I don't know what to do or where to go from here. I know I can wish all I want for this to all have been a bad dream but H is who he is. I just don't know who that is. You're right, I don't like the man I married as a person. But now the man I dated is back. Which one is real? That's my indecision.
Me - 38, 2nd M, no living children, 1 forever 6 yr old boy H - 44, 3rd M, twins 16
Dating 4/07 M 10/08 Bomb #1 12/10 Bomb #2 1/11 Bomb #3 12/11
