No one wants to be miserable, depressed, lost or otherwise. No one. There are people way too comfortable in those emotions but at the end of the day, they don't want to be there. But that's where you are right now. That's where a lot of us are right now and the best advice I've received from you guys is to just feel it instead of fighting it.
As far as thinking about the time you lost... you only lose what you waste. There was such a profound message that someone sent to me right at the beginning of this mess. She said that the time she went through with her H and the breakdown of her marriage was some of the best in her life. She got to really do and be what she wanted to do and be. So, while everything seems like it's lost, it's not. We are getting that time and that shot.
You are right, though, this is a very safe place to wear your heart on your sleeve. We are here for you and will continue to be here for you! And I'm just so thankful for the people here for me when I'm feeling down. I'm praying for you.
