As the Bolt Turns

[Bolt]

hey all!
I actually feel a little bad posting b/c things are going well BUT I want to offer the encouragement of what is just around the corner for you guys.

Yesterday, my goal was to just basically let the W work and not worry about what she was doing. I mentally backslid a bit by being a little insecure for some stupid reason and slapped myself upside the head to continue to GAL.

So I did. Yesterday, went to the beach to run and read. Even fell asleep there. Well, while there, I turned my phone off. I forgot and then came home a bit later.

Got some writing done and then realized I hadn't talked to W all day. She normally calls or texts just to say hi. Right when I was thinking that, she calls (serendipity anyone?)

I said, "I was just thinking about you." She said that she called a few times today but I wasn't around. We're showing the house to sell, so I was in and out most of the day and then the whole turning off the phone at the beach thing.

Anyway, she comes home and I thought for sure she would just be tired and go to bed - it's totally fine because of a 12 hour shift can do that.

BUT she wanted to chat. Just chat. I tell you what, I've learned to listen and really WANT to know what went on in her day. Old Bolt could give two sh#ts. I now know that she needs that to feel loved and you can bet your sweet buns that I'm going to give that to her.

Long point later, she is really into the cuddling thing now. All throughout the night and in the morning. I'm diggin it because that's what I need to feel loved. I can honestly say that my love bucket is getting filled.

but the work isn't done. I've read some posts on the piecing list that just freaking breaks my heart about how things got BACK to worse. I don't want to be there. Work every day.