I hate talking about my issues on someone else's thread because life isn't about me. But, gonna have to do this right now. My H was a lot like you. What I thought and what I wanted didn't much matter. (Now, I fixed all of this by emasculating him and making him feel like dirt - not recommended in the future). If my H came to me and told me that he had changed, I wouldn't believe it for a second. I just wouldn't care. But something strange is happening in my life right now that is showing me that my H might actually care about me and what I think. 1) He has started thanking me for even the smallest things. 2) I had a bad migraine for days, he went to go get my medication. 3) He doesn't clean up after himself. Now, he is cleaning up and he doesn't even live there! 4) My closet broke. Normally I would be hiring someone else to try to make a fairly easy fix. He came over last night and fixed it. 5) I've got a huge amount of cleaning to do this weekend, he has volunteered to come over and help. Normally all I could count on is that he would be scheduling a golf outing, preferably out of state.
Ok... so my extremely long-winded point, yes, you eventually have to say something to her and apologize. You aren't there yet. So prepare the speech and really think on what you want to say. But right now, you have to seek out the smallest opportunities to show her that you have changed. I know that is hard in your sitch but you need to search for an opportunity and jump on it. And you need to be consistent with this.
I am pretty much at the same stage. Nothing I say will matter right now, but my behavior is everything. That's why 2Step had to hit me with a 2x4 and tell me to stop being a b&tch. You already figured that out. Now, you need to seek out ways to show her that what she has said and what she had thought, matters.
I'm praying for you sweet friend!!! And I seriously LOVE the title of your thread.
