I still want to make this work

[♪CS♪]

OK, I need some advice. She still hasn't filed, or at least she hasn't told me and I have not been served. I am seriously thinking about filing myself. I want to say "I prefer to make this marriage work and save our family, but I know that is not what you want and I am not going to try to talk you out of that. I cannot put up with this affair any longer, so the sooner our marriage is over, the sooner the affair is over. Take care."

I don't even really want to play games, it is really just how I feel at this point. If she wants to try to reconcile, she can still do that, but I do not want to be the one just waiting anymore.

Thoughts?